Confissões de uma mente em desenvolvimento

Big girls you are beautiful

2010-12-13T15:14:00.001-02:00

Bigger women are more desirable, according to American research.

According to a recent research from “New Scientist” of the

U.S.

the future women will be plump, fertile and with smaller stature. All the men have deepest desires in the consummation of sexual intercourse with women more chunky, hot and bulky. The problem is that not everybody accepts it. Also because this desire is of an unconscious order because there is a prerogative of the society in Brazil that this is ugly, wrong, etc…

Many high-end brands make their molds without thinking of larger mannequins fashion dictating who “may or may not” use certain brands, it is a nonsense and gets to be an incentive to prejudice, contrary to North American culture, where there is no such kind of attitude. Says the old Arab proverb: "Women have to fill in the bed, leaving the happy man, because who like bones are dogs".

Unconscious desire

The issue of unconscious desire for a particular biotype is very strong, but it is difficult to manage this desire for many reasons: shame, influence of others, hints from friends or family etc...

The problem is that the more the person runs away from their likes the more she will have psychological problems, by generating a series of emotional conflicts disturbing the emotional conflicts and being away from your real goal. It can even direct the person to have a totally opposite relationship that he desire and likes. That is, instead of assuming the first taste for plump and "be happy" the person assumes a relationship with the slender woman preferring to show this woman off at the malls, for example. But his sexual energy is set entirely in the "chubby", creating frustration, because at the time of bed it’s the ‘chubby’ he wants. This mechanism of ego defence is called reaction formation: when a person tends to be with someone completely opposite of his real desire and biotype.

Consequence of not assuming the desire

Besides the reaction formation, which already leads the man to choose another woman, the ego develops another type of defense mechanism, called Compensation: where the man will always seek sexual satisfaction with a woman that gives him pleasure even as if temporary and casual. So the first question that comes up is the negative betrayal: he can have the skinny, but will always cheat with the chubby, because if they not marry their biotype they will have no pleasure, they will not gain physical and sexual health, they won’t improve their psychological condition, they will be always cheating and having an unreal and unhealthy life with conflict in every way, then it will compensate for the lack of pleasure that you need with the chubby, but will generate conflict, unrest and unhappiness, because when he gets home he will find the woman opposed to their dreams, and have produced misery for the many psychological manifestations produced by his unconscious.

Assuming the desire

When assuming their unconscious desire the man will have a peaceful life and consequently his wife too, because she will feel touched and loved feeling pleasure in her own body without fault and dismissing both neuroses and hypochondria and above all daily stress present in people who fight against their taste and desire.

The pudgy are healthier, unlike the “Anas”, which are anorexic and have deficiency in their metabolism, emotional, psychological and physical. The “bigger women” have more health and are more likely to get pregnant and know how to give themselves more in bed, the ease of being more fertile is greater, since fertility means health, and the woman to get pregnant has to be good otherwise the psychological will have the sufficient power to stop pregnancy.

Women with sinuous curves and plump have long been the object of desire of all men. Besides they are very beautiful, have seductive smiles and know how to walk perfectly showing off their curves, and are overly sensitive and have the gift of tenderness, quite different from the "Anas" (anorexics) who doesn’t have the same charm.

The greatest representative of plump and tasty can be given by the stunning Marilyn Monroe, not even the most powerful man on the planet at the time, President John Kennedy resisted.

Alexander Bez is a psychologist who specializes in Anxiety and Panic Disorder by the University of California - UCLA, Relationships and the University of Miami, Florida.

Real article on: http://alynesplace1.blogspot.com/2010/12/mulheres-gordinhas-habitam-inconsciente.html

Formando Burros!!!

2010-05-20T13:57:00.002-03:00

Estou chateada com uma coisa que aconteceu na faculdade essa semana. Não entendo a atitude de algumas pessoas, sério, acho que a maioria dos meus colegas de classe são uns bandos de cagões, me desculpe por usar essa palavra, mas não vejo outra que se encaixe melhor.

A história é a seguinte, temos uma professora de Literatura Brasileira que não vem atendendo aos requisitos que a grade de ensino propõe. Já perdemos duas aulas da mesma no primeiro semestre desse ano, não parece muito falando assim, mas se você olhar de um outro ângulo vai perceber que qualquer meia hora perdida numa sala de aula de faculdade faz toda uma diferença depois, na hora de uma prova, por exemplo. Enfim, ela tem faltado e os dias em que ela deu aula foi como se nada tivesse acontecido, claro que não posso dizer que não aprendi nada, até que aprendi um pouco sobre sexo.

A coordenadora do nosso curso recebeu reclamações sobre nossa sala através de dois professores nossos, que, compreensivamente foram reclamar com a coordenada sobre o comportamento de alguns elementos da sala. Uma vergonha total!!! Nossa sala adotou o péssimo hábito de fazer um barulhinho irritante de pessoa quando está incomodada com algo que a atrapalhou enquanto a mesma estava no meio de uma ação, no começo era engraçado até, uma brincadeirinha besta para descontrair o ambiente, normal. Mas chegou no ponto de esse barulhinho irritante também atrapalhar a aula, mas na sala ‘neguinho’ não se toca, teve um professor que se sentiu ofendido e desrespeitado por nós, consequentemente, não teve outro jeito, foram na direção.

Bom, não quero mudar o rumo da história, mas queria deixá-los a par de como toda a encrenca começou. Voltando sobre a coordenadora do curso, após receber essas reclamações de dois professores, que não citarei nomes, pois, mesmo que esse blog não vá ser lido depois por pessoas da faculdade, não interessa citar nomes, o importante é que nós, alunos, sabemos quem são. Enfim, a coordenadora do curso foi à nossa sala para saber o que estava acontecendo, o porquê das reclamações de uma sala tão querida, como ela mesma disse. O assunto foi se desenrolando até chegarmos nessa queixa contra a professora de Literatura Brasileira, falaram mal, dos prejuízos sofridos por nós, do nosso não aprendizado adquirido na matéria... E por aí vai. A coordenadora coletou todas as nossas reclamações e disse que tentaria resolver esse assunto, achávamos que ela iria de imediato conversar com a professora em questão, pra ver o que está acontecendo, se ela não está feliz com a sala e blá blá blá.

É claro que isso ficou somente nas palavras, afinal, é final de semestre, já perdemos muitas coisas, as provas estão chegando, não carece criar mais esse problema, então, o que se tentou fazer foi arrumar as coisas para o próximo semestre, a coordenadora nos pediu que assinássemos uma lista, havia duas na verdade, uma com assinaturas para a permanência da professora e, a outra com assinaturas para a saída da professora. É onde a cagança começa, alunos que são alunos são curiosos, perguntaram quais as outras opções de professores que teríamos para a substituição dessa professora, souberam dar somente um nome, o de um professor que tivemos no 1º semestre.

[COMENTÁRIO]

Nossa sala tem uns alunos do 2º semestre, que entraram no semestre seguinte após o curso ter se iniciado. Em conseqüência, os mesmos não conhecem esse professor em questão.

[FIM COMENTÁRIO]

Ao ser levantada a hipótese desse professor ser o primeiro da lista para substituição dessa professora, uma colega de classe com intuito de informar, ou melhor, desinformar os alunos do segundo semestre quanto à esse professor, ela disse coisas que não são, realmente, do jeito que foi compreendido por nós. Se eu não conhecesse esse professor, ficaria com medo dele! Ela disse que ele é um ótimo professor, ensina bem... MAS é arrogante, nos chamavam de burros, nos fazia sentirmos inferiores e que ela tinha medo do que ele poderia fazer com a gente. ORA, quando ela disse que ele é um ÓTIMO professor, ensina BEM não valeu de nada? As pessoas só ouviram quando ela disse que ele era arrogante? Entendo que ele não era um professor fácil, ele era exigente, pegava no pé, nos mandavam pesquisar sobre a matéria que ele dava para não ficarmos apegados somente com o que ele dizia em classe. Quanto ao fato dele nos fazer sentirmos inferiores, isso depende da sensibilidade da pessoa, do modo como ela vê e sente as coisas. Quando ela fala isso, tenho certeza que ela se referia sobre quando ele citava algum livro de literatura em sala, e não sabíamos nem que livro era aquele, ele ficava chateado, falava que estávamos fazendo Letras, tem que ler literatura tem que saber essas coisas. Não acho que isso seja motivo para nos sentirmos inferiores e sim vergonha! Ele estava certo, sempre esteve certo! Como pode pessoas cursando Letras não saber nada sobre livros como Hamlet, A Moreninha... Ele ficava chateado sim, mas nunca nos fez sentir que éramos burros. Ele não aceitava o entra e sai em sala de aula, não admitia atraso de muito tempo, isso não é o perfil de uma pessoa arrogante, e sim de uma pessoa que gosta das coisas certas, direitas, do jeito que elas têm que ser.

Agora me pergunto, como que os alunos, os mesmos que reclamavam do modo da professora de Literatura Brasileira lecionar, assinaram para que ela continuasse como nossa professora por medo do que o esse professor poderia nos fazer? Acho que todos são egoístas, pensam somente no próprio umbigo, e pior TÊM MEDO DE APRENDER!!! Trocaram um semestre no qual adquiriríamos conhecimento por um semestre vago, oco e perdido. Estamos pagando para aprender em branco, para aprender com aulas vagas...

Olha os futuros professores e tradutores desse país *roll eyes*

O único motivo pelo qual não fiquei mais decepcionada com isso é que não seguirei carreira, se eu não gostasse tanto do Português, desistiria do curso, mas, não sacrificarei tudo que passei para chegar até aqui. Se querem continuar com professora topeira, continuem! Se querem fechar os olhos para o que é bom e nos favorece, fechem! Pois todos nossos atos têm consequências no futuro.

R E A D I N E N G L I S H

I'm upset about something that happened this week in college. I do not understand the attitude of some people, seriously, I think most of my classmates are a flock of shysters, I'm sorry for using that word, but I don’t see another one that fits better.

The story is the following, we have a professor of Brazilian Literature that has not been taking on the requirements that the grade education proposed. We have already lost two classes of this professor in the first half of this year, does not seem much, but if you look from another angle you will realise that any half hours lost in a college class makes all the difference when you’re doing an exam , for example. Anyway, she has missed two classes and the days when she gave lessons was as if nothing had happened, of course I can not say I learned nothing, I’ve learned a little about sex.

The coordinator of our course has received complaints about our class by another two professors of us, who understandably complained to the coordinater about the behavior of some people of the our class. A total shame! Our class took a nasty habit of making an annoying beeping when a person take the class attention by coming in and out the classroom, in the beginning it was funny, a little joke beast to relax the area , normal. But arrived at the point of this annoying beeping also disrupt the classroom, but some people has no respect, we had a teacher who felt offended and disrespected by us, therefore, had no other way, he went to the principal’s office.

Well, do not want to change the course of this story, but I wanted to make you aware of how all the trouble began. Getting back on to our course coordinator, after receiving these complaints from two professors who I will not cite names, because, even though this blog will not be read by people of the college, no matter to name names, it is important that we, students know who they are. Finally, the course coordinator came to our room to see what was happening, why the complaints of a room so dear class, as she Said herself. The matter was unfolding until we get this complaint against the professor of Brazilian Literature, the students spoke evil of losses incurred by us, and about our not experience gained in this subject ... And so on. The coordinator collected all our complaints and said she would try to resolve this issue, we thought she would immediately talk to that professor, to see what was happening, if she is not happy with the class and blah blah blah.

Of course it was only words, after all, we’re in the end of the semester, we have already lost many things, the tests are coming, there had no need to create this new problem , so what we tried to do was to fix things for next semester, the coordinator asked us to sign a list, there were two actually, one with signatures to the permanence of the professor and the other signatures to the output of the professor. It's where the shit begins, students are students and they were curious about who would replace that teacher, they gave just only one name, a professor we had in the first semester.

[COMMENT]

Our class (3rd semester) is together with the 2nd semester, which entered the following semester after the course has begun. As a result, they did not know this professor in question.

[END COMMENT]

When the Idea of this professor was hypothesized, that this professor was the first on the list to replace the Brazilian Literature professor, a classmate with the purpose of informing, or rather misinform the students who didn’t know about this second professor, she said things that are not really the way that was understood by us. If I did not know this professor, I would be afraid of him! She said he is a great teacher, teach well ... BUT is arrogant and has called us stupid once and made us feel inferior and that she was afraid of what he could do with us. COME ON, when she said he is a GREAT teacher and teach WELL do not worth anything? People only listened when she said he was arrogant? I understand that he was not an easy teacher, he was demanding, he took on foot, he used to say to us to go in search warrant on the subject that he taught us, to us not get attached only to what he said in class. As for whether it make us feel inferior, it depends on the sensitivity of the person, the way she sees and feels things. When this classmate spoke that, I'm sure she was referring to when he cited a book of literature in the classroom, and we didn’t even know that book so he used to be upset about that, that what we were studying we must had to know those books, you have to read literature have to know these things . I don’t think that's a reason to feel inferior, but shame! He was right, he was always right! How can people be attending Language Course without knowing a thing about books such as Hamlet, A Moreninha ... He was upset, yes, but never made us feel that we were stupid. He did not accept the incoming and outgoing in the classroom, did not admit delays of long term, this is not the profile of an arrogant person, but a person who likes the right things the way they have to be.

Now I wonder, as students, those who complained about the way the professor teach Brazilian Literature, signed for her to continue as our teacher for fear of what this other teacher might do to us. I think everyone is selfish, thinking only in their own self, and worse HAVE FEAR TO LEARN! They exchanged a semester in which knowledge would be adquired for a half vacant, hollow and lost semester with the same professor. We are paying for learning in white, to learn lessons vacancies ...

Look at the future teachers and translators of our country * roll eyes *

The only reason I have not been more and more disappointed with this is because I don’t intend to follow this career, if I did not like much of the Portuguese, I’d give up the course, but I will not sacrifice everything I’ve been through to get in here. If they want to continue with that mole teacher, let them continue! If they want to close their eyes to what is good and favors us, let them close! For all our actions have consequences in the future.

Bjos

Mika

Move to the movies

2010-05-14T16:19:00.002-03:00

I don't know... do you know when you have that feeling that something ain't right? well... I don't know

I've been thinking lately about the things that have been happening to me, too many changes in my life in such a short period of time is like life moving at the speed of light and I can't follow this velocity and at the same time when I'm thinking something is getting back to normal it has already changed again...weird, very weird. And I'm sounding like an emo talking like that haha no, I'm not emo, I'm not sad right now I'm just thoughful today, visibly not inspired to write coz I'm being redundant in here, I'm sounding like a cd that is repeated over and over again.

C H A N G I N G S U B J E C T

I was thinking about going to the cinema on the weekend because I'm desperated to see The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus, seems like a GREAT movie, I read that this was the last movie Heath Ledger did as he died he so the director Terry Gilliam had a fantastic idea of instead picking up just one new actor to take Heath Ledger place he decided to pick up three more WONDERFUL men, they are: Johnny Depp, Jude Law and Colin Farrel. Now you understand why this movie MUST be seen!!! I guess that after Alice in Wonderland this is the movie I've been very excited about and hopefully I'm gonna have a free time to watch it *cross-finger*
Talking about Alice in Wonderland, WHAT A WONDERFUL MOVIE, I would run out of good adjectives if I was going to describe what I thought about this movie, it's just perfect, Tim Burton is a genius!!! James Cameron who? I am suspect to talk about Tim Burton because to me he is the best director EVER. His first movie I remember of is Beetle Juice, very funny movie and with this movie you could see Tim Burton's type , what kind of movie he would love to do... then he came up with Edward Scissorhands which is PERFECT too... and thanks God he liked Johnny Depp because both makes a wonderful couple lol. Then he invited Depp again to join him in the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory movie, this movie is very cute, love it DEPP IS A HELL OF AN ACTOR!!! Tim Burton so liked him AGAIN that ended up offering him another role in a different movie, well, I wouldn't say that was a 'role' though the cartoon was very much like Depp... that was inspired on him and also Depp gave the cartoon his voice so yes we can consider that Depp had a role in the movie, and which movie am I talking about??? it's Corpse Bride, this movie is really good. Then we have Depp again in Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street... I can't even find words to describe this musical, it's just PERFECT, I'm not so into musical but this one makes you wanna watch it until the end, the story is too sad but the whole context... wonderful!!! and finally we have Alice in Wonderland another outstanding movie by Tim Burton, the only thing I have to say about it is: GO AND WATCH IT!!!

Well... I believe that I'm through by now, I wasn't even going to talk about movie in here but suddenly I thought this was a good idea so... until the next time...whoever that read this post.

Cheers!

This is all unfair

2009-12-10T23:22:00.004-02:00

Well, I know it's been quite a while now since last sunday, but I can't help reminding people how brazilian championship 2009 was all wrong, I believe that the real way of making a good championship is letting things go naturally, not manipulation involved.

To start, I'm in totally indignation because these shits started to happen after Palmeiras lost for Sport making him lose first position, there was okay, we still had too many games on our way, we had how to catch our top again, yes, it was ours because this championship was supposed to be Palmeiras'. But incredibly out of the blue Palmeiras started to lose performance and their position on the qualifying...ridiculous, just ridiculous.

After the other teams started reaching the top everything seemed to be totally normal...but then things started to get a little strange, the title was so up to any of the teams that we would only know who would win only at the final game. That's when the shit starts to happen, the four firsts teams had the chance to win and so the teams from below the, the lasts ones had the chance to go up or down.

Teams from Rio were basically on spot, because it was Flamengo trying wint he championship and Fluminense and Botafogo trying not to go under to Serie B, and what was impossible turned to be possible, how??? I'll tell you my dear, when there are money involved everything is possible, it was stamped in their faces (everybody in the Direction) that these championship was totally bought, even me that never understood how these stuffs runs could realise that, it's ridiculous and I'm ashamed of this. How comes a team that comes from the 10th position to 1st in what, five games... come on...this is all ridiculous. What about the ones from below that only spent the whole championship down there and just in the final game they got out of there, seriously??? it doesn't exist and this is serius, this kind os stuff can never happen to a country that is an inspiration to footballers all over the world and that is going to host the World Cup and The Olympics??? is a total shame for all the brazilian people, we don't deserve to be shown like this to other people wherever they live, this is not what we want but unfortunatelly is showing what we suppostly are, I really wished things were different, but I can't change things by myself so that's why I decided to express my feelings because I'm really upset about what happened.

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and sorry for my bad english, I won't revise it so it means my text is full of mistakes....but I don't care... I just needed to spill it out, and now I'm even feeling better.

Keane in São Paulo

2009-03-20T23:46:00.004-03:00

Well, I supose that I'm supposed to start from the beginning... I still don't know how to do it, I mean, in my head I have so many things to say but when I have to put them in words I kind of get stuck, I'm not sure that it only happens to me but I have to say that I might start to concern now.

Okay.

So, as a blog is for people to share their experiences in life here I am to share with you [if there are people who's going to read this] the happiest day of my entire life [at least the happiest I can remember of]. So guess what is it??? KEANE'S GIG IN SÃO PAULO, yeah I know that it's been past a week already [time flies] but I'm still living that perfect night, the most perfect night ever, let's see why.

First of all.

When I heard last year [november] that Keane was coming to Brazil to do three gigs I got crazy [more than I already am] I thought they would do two gigs in São Paulo again just as in 2007 but they wouldn't but hey, I am not complaining because they were also going to the State that I was born [I'm not from São Paulo, just live here since I was born basically] and this made me so so so happy, I didn't believe because it's rare a band like Keane go to some place where there is no 'habit' for concert like this, anyway, I was happy because Keane would come.

When the tickets started to be sold I was insanely working, I mean, it was in December and I basically do not exist in December coz I work at a catering so that month we had many many events to go, so what I did??? I obligated my younger sister to go to buy our tickets, this was my condition, 'either you go to buy them or I'll buy only mine' [I'm bad] but she did go of course, she wouldn't miss this for anything... now I feel pity for her because she didn't know how to go to the music hall [now she does], anyway we got our tickets on 20th December to a concert that would happen on 10th March...if I am addicted to Keane? that's up to you to think about it.

... the months passed by ...

january.... boring

february .... exhausting

march ... anxiety

Though I was very anxious I wasn't totally aware that I was going to see Keane, it was like surreal yet, guess that my brain was ticking over. I just realised what was going to happen when the day before arrived, that's when I started to eat my nails, to feel my heart beating faster, to feel a pain in my chest. I think I was afraid of no getting the front row again, this simple and small fact was driving me insane... and I had to work and go to college that day...Oh God, I couldn't pay attention to what the profesor was saying because the only thing I could think of was Keane, the feeling of knowing that they are with their feet on the same land as yours is incredible, you feel happiness, sadness, anxiety, pain...all kind of feeling, the worse is when you know where they are at that very moment but you can't do anything, you can't go out to see them, it's hurtfull, you have to be strong and hold on tight.

But as I was saying I had to work and study that day [a monday, by the way] when I got home it was fifteen past midnight and I was planning to reach Credicard Hall at 4am, so I had less than three hours to sleep, but did the excitment let me sleep? I had to fight against my eyelids to get them shut for at least two hours, I had to sleep, I NEEDED to sleep. When I had just started to be sleepy I heard my cell phone ringing, it was the clock I set to 3:30am, so I gave up and got up then I shook my sister but she already had her eyes opened [I wasn't the only one super excited] we both dressed up whatever we found in front of us, I took some money, my cell phone and some magazines to read while I wait for my friends to arrive.

Me and Gabe [my sis] decided to go to the big avenue we live near of to see if we got a cab, we walked and walked and walked and nothing, the avenue was totally empty, just a police car driving around the neighborhood, I was starting to freak out because everytime they passed over us seemed like they were going to stop us and ask us what were we doing at that late night walking in the streets but they didn't, guess they realised that we were normal people walking down the streets [I guess]. No cab passed by and as we were walking for a while we decided to stop in a bus stop because we could see that they were starting the work but unfortunatelly none of the little ones that passed by would work for us so we once again decided to walk a little but more, we were almost getting in our destiny but our legs were hurting already so we stopped again and as soon as we stoped we saw a bus coming, we celebrated of course and gave it the sign to stop, we were so relieved it was around 4:35am.

When we get at Credicard Hall it was still dark, we didn't know either gate we should start the queue since we were the first ones so we asked a cab man that seemed to work in that area and he said that the place we were was the place where the queue was formed, then we sit down and started to take a look at the magazines [all of them about Twilight hehe] after more or less twenty minutes another girl showed up asking us if we were there because of Keane's gig and we answered 'yes', so we introduced ourselves, she said that she was in the other gate and there had nobody there, so we started to talk and talk and talk...ah before that I called Lena [friend of mine] to tell her I was the first one, that's when she told me the most amazing news ever, it was like music to my ears.

"Mika, I have good news to you" then I said "Yeah? what's that?" so she answered "We are going to see Keane's soundcheck" at that moment my heart almost stopped beating, I started shaking fingers, then she said what I feared the most "But your sister can't go" I was shocked, afterall my sister is the graphic designer of the oficial site as I'm the web designer, I told Lena that but she apologised saying that she tried and she would keep on trying but that was quite impossible...my sister started to cry and talk nonsense things like "I don't want to go to the concert anymore, I want to go home...I want to go to school, I don't want to be here" and i was desperately trying to calm her down because something was telling me that she would go too, she would see them....and even if she didn't we were going to be at the front row, so no worries. But she was nervous which means that everything I was saying she wasn't really listening.

... after some time ...

Lena and Aline [another friend] arrived, we had already come in to the front part of credicard coz the gates were opened, and to pur surprise there were other girls there, around 3 or 4 people, they arrived at 6am and were in front of the other gate so as it was opened first they got there first as us... I didn't want to argue but the people thought It was wrong they be there because theorically I got there first, I was planted there since 5am but as I knew it would turn into trouble...said and done...later much more later after around 5 or 6pm some fans started to moo us because people whom weren't from our Fan Club were entering in the queue everywhere, I mean, they came and just got in front of us, so people thought we knew them and started to be mad at us... I wasn't aware of what was happening until few days ago, and I'm not really quite sure that i know everything. I just remember people yelling at us "Hey Fan Club, Fuck You" bad bad people, they don't know what they were talking about.

... 5pm, the most expected hour ...

We didn't have any nails anymore, specially my sister. Lena told us that the other girl wouldn't get there in time so she said to Lena to put another person in her place, guess whose this person was? Gabe my sis, she was so grateful. I just felt sad about the other girls [our friends] that were outside with their eyes full of tears, that scene broke my heart, Ceu [my mother in law, she claims to be Tom's mom lol] she would try to talk to the label again to see we they let at least the other girls come in too.

The Label representant called us to the press door, I wasn't still believing that was happening. She started to call out our names, Lena told her about Gabe, she said okay. When everybody got in we could hear Keane rehearsing Perfect Symmetry, we were sit in the chairs there when Ceu went up to the Label woman to tell her about the girls, they talked for about three minutes and she said YES, so Ceu went to the door with the woman to call out for the girls, when I saw them getting in and crying I couldn't hold myself, I started crying too and Keane was still playing Perfect Symmetry, that moment was perfect, we started to hug each others and cry together, that was beautiful.

After one minute Andy [Keane security] came up to us to talk to us, he was very cute and cool, we even took pictures with him, then he left and we were told how to behave in the soundcheck:

"You are gonna get there and please do not interrupt the band, you can take as many pictures as you want, then they are gonna sit down and you can give them your gifts and get autographs and all, but don't take any indivdual pictures with them, I'm gonna be with a camera here and when everyone is passing to them I'll take a picture, okay? then you let your emails in this paper and next week I'll send you the download links of the photos, okay?"

Everybody agreed, of course!

So she guided in to see Keane. Now I can't remember if they were singing or not...I was too emotional to pay attention to what was happening. I just remember that when we got there Tom started to say "hello" ... "hi" ... "how are you?" ... "tudo bem?" [everythings's alright?] at that time I was melting already...everybody started to say hi to them and then they said that they were going to sing Spiralling, everybody cheered so they started singing and so did us [I filmed this part] then they sang Everybody's changing...what a perfect moment!!!

Erica our friend she had this banner written "Play MY SHADOW" and then she shout at them to play it and Tom for some reason answered to me, as if I were the one asking for the song, he said:

Tom: Sorry, I'm saving my voice for tonight... my shadow requires so much of my voice
Me: Your voice will sound beautiful as well

He didn't hear right so he gave a step forward in my direction and bend a little to listen to me

Tom: WHOT???

[at this time I was totally unsteady]

Me: your voice will sound beautiful as well

[he gave me that beautiful smile of him]

Tom: Thank you, but I can't, I wasn't feeling good these last few days so my throat might be swollen up if I force it too much
Me: Okay

[I think he didn't put faith in me so he said]

Tom: That's true

[still smiling]

... my sister ...

After a little break when there were no sound my sister yell at the top of her lungs:

"JESSE, MARRY ME"

He got his cheeks so red, he was so shy, poor boy....Tom was beside him and patted his shoulders three times as if saying 'sucessfull with the ladies, hun?' then Rich getting up from his chairs pointing his index finger to Jesse laughing a lot, that was a scene we don't see everyday haha

Then they finished the souncheck and went to the table to give us full attention. I wasn't the first one [thanks God] as a matter of fact I was the lasts ones. Anyway, Beth was there helping with the line, Teresa [a senior Keane fan] was in front of me, she was with her daughter, I don't know what she said to Beth but Beth didn't understand so she said:

"I'm sorry, I can't understand a word that you're saying"

I laughed a little bit, of course because the scene was comic but then I said:

"She's trying her best"

then Beth said:

"Yeah, I'm sure she is...you at least can say a whole sentence in english and I don't know a word in portuguese"

so I said:

"Don't worry, portuguese is hard even for brazilians" and she laughed

Now was my turn to talk to the guys.

First one, TIM

Tim: hi, how are you?

Me: im fine, thanks for asking [giving him my piece of paper for him to sign]

Me: sorry, im trembling, i shouldn't but i am...is that i've never been in front of a famous person before [looking like a fool] i know that famous is not the right word to say but...

Tim [laughing]: that's okay, i know the feeling [then I see my sister wrapping her arms around Tom and demanding me to take a picture, I excused Tim]

Me: Let me take this picture or she will kill me later [he laughed again]

Me [making my way to Tom]: I am not apple polishing you but you are the best pianist i have ever met...is like...Beethoven who???

Tim [still laughing]: Thanks [and kept laughing]

The second one, TOM

Me: Hello

Tom: hi, how are you?

Me: im fine [giving him the paper]

Me: Sorry, I didn't buy you any gift

Tom: That's okay, what matters is your presence here and support

Me [drools]: Thank you, you're very kind...but you know, i ran out of money so [he laughed, and this wasn't even funny]

Me: I have these letters from girls that are in the queue, they couldn't come in so they asked me to give you them

Tom: Wow, there are many stuffs here....what is it? [started to open one letter, seemed to be a drawning]

Me: I have no idea what's in them...but dont worry coz it's not a bomb [he laughed again so I gave him bye]

The third one, RICH

Me: hello richard

Rich: hello there

Me [with my index finger pointing to his face acusing]: You didn't give me your drumstick

Rich: the other girl asked first, sorry [looking like 'forgive me']

Me: but i know you have plenty over there [pointed to the backstage]

Rich: i'll throw them at the crowd

Me: Why dont you hand me one? i'll be at the front row

Rich: let's see

Me: Will you remember my face?

Rich: I don't know

Me: I'm unforgetable [everybody laughed, even their securities...this wasn't funny at all]

Rich: What's your name? [laughing]

Me: Mika....and it is not because of the singer

Rich: How do you spell it? the same way?

Me: yes

Me: can i take a picture of you?

Rich: but they're already taking them for you [pointed to whoever was taking the photos]

Me: Okay...thanks anyway.

bad bad richard

Then we came back to the queue and waited for the concert, which was the most wonderful concert ever, better than the one of 2007, much much much better and to me that gig was the best one, but Keane has changed so much not just the visual but musically too, their songs are just MAGNIFICENT, no words can describe it, they really are a bunch of genius, they are uncomparable, they are unique and I will always like them because of what they are and what they do and the way they treat us.

Keane, thank you very much for letting me know your songs and have a great time listening to them!!!

2007-06-20T20:46:00.006-03:00

Well, this is kinda new to me so do not laugh at me if I say something stupid here, I've just created a blog coz lately people have been saying to me a lot how good it is to have a blog coz at least in our page we can talk about anything we want to, so I decided to open a blog to talk about one thing that I really love, music.

As I'm just starting, I mean, I'm new in this I'm not gonna post a long post talking about the world's music/band, I'm just going to leave here a wonderful lyric by my fave band all over the world, Keane, I'm sure you are gonna hear a lot about them here coz I can't help it. I wake up, have my breakfast, have lunch, take a shower, go to my course, get in a bus, sleep and dream about Keane, they're just fanstastic and I'm suspect to tell you about it. So here a lyric of a song of them that I love, I'd say that's my favourite song ever.

We might as well be strangers - by Keane

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers

For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know